Did you know

Did you know that toothbrushes were used to make stew and soup during war time due to the shortage of bones?

Tok Tok Tok

up since 7.30am

Having to sleep at 4 yesterday, under normal circumstances I'll usually be back in bed and sleeping within 10 mins at this hour..

But today I'm done with breakfast and my dosage of caffeine and nicotine..

I've also woke up with a sore eye, have a feeling I slept on it last night..

Now this is new..

Happy ........... Birthday!

A Shout out!

Happy belated Birthday Anne!

Yes I know its late but better late than never? :P

Notification

The lack of updates are due to the following reasons:

1-Assignments

2-International Students Committee stuff

3-When I get a breather, its whiskey and chilled out sessions which rarely occur

4-The launch of Call of duty:Modern Warfare 2

5-Final year project

6-More MW2

7-More assignments balls


Just for some graphical pleasure sake, here's a sneak peek of what my final year project is all about:




Some swirling flow properties within a cylinder. Its gonna get geeky if I were to continue hence, the end of the post!

Have a nice day.

Of Sun and Rain.. Or not..

It was a sunny day. When Hock came.

Now its gloomy and raining, and I've got only a pack left..
Whilst saving it, I'm out.. =S

Dilution

By diluting a substance, do you get more of what you had, or do you get an illusion of your now larger possession?

One may argue the fact that the amount of desired substance is of equality but what about the quality of the possessed good?

Is the possession of a larger quantity more pleasant to your perspective or would the quality of the limited amount of substance matter more?

A thought that was not at all random, but had popped out of my mind again.

*scratch scratch*

Trivial!
Albatross can sleep while it flies, dozing off at the sleep of approximately 25 mph.

Scheiße

3 packs left. An exact /10 factor. 5th week and I think I'll be needing more for the weeks to come. God damn..

If you're wondering, its the assignments and the involvements here and there.

Waking up at 9 like how a normal person should be and trying to sleep as a normal person should be is a real effort.

"Scheiße"

Welcome back!

Welcome back! ;)

Thanks

Thank you..

A piece of home

Hock brought present in a form of Reds.. =D

Product of Kelantan yo!

Damn I missed those..

Sold!

Sold my speakers today. No loss there, but damn I'm feeling kinda empty without it at the moment. No more blasting of music, no more Altec Lancing in the house.. I know they're not the best speakers in the world but damn, a year had left me with some sentiments with that 2.1..

But heck! The Goldring headphones will do from now on! :)

On another note.. 12am and I'm back in my apartment while people are out there still partying.. Starting to write up some bits about the kyoto protocol.. A sad final year student? Well, this is what I speak of when prioritising comes to play..

Followed by this old Toyota Corolla advert which had some connections here and there if you look at the whole idea..

Surprise!

I was having fever n such few days back. Couldn't get out of my bed and all. Basically, bad shape. A friend of mine knew about it and decided to send me some things..

She sent me a whole fruit basket!!!

Hahahah! Thank you mei anne! This is probably the biggest surprise I've ever got in a mail!

I could not for the love of my life believe you did it! There were more fruits exceeding my fruity knowledge!

Life of a free student

New semester starts in a bit.

SO many things to do. But yet, there's only a year left to strive for all these.

Formula Student, Yorkshire Regiment, International Students Committee, Studies, The lonely bass guitar, job hunting, Final year project, and a few resolutions to complete..

Decisions, decisions.. Ever got tired of making decisions? Well, that's life isn't it? What job to get, what to achieve, what to obtain and how to obtain..

Prioritising and sacrificing for what's worth more. Questionable moral and ethics . A fucking business this life is.




Just another random rant..

New VW Scirocco R and Golf R Ad

Sexy

My farewell gift

WARNING: CONTENT MIGHT CAUSE DISCOMFORT.












Malaysia decided to leave me a farewell gift.



Was it a mosquitoes' buffet night or an allergy reaction (something later suspected), I don't know. But it was damn well a gift just a day before I leave.

Time to go, again

It was a different experience. But I enjoyed it. ;)

Fucking insomnia..

Accidents Happen

Tears flown and sorrow soared; thou shall always be in our hearts.




Casualties of the night:

12 years glenfiddich + 1 zippo..

Ouch

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YH: FUCK! This is the second time shits like these happened to me.

Christopher: Dei, why la? When the previous one happened?

YH: In the airport once, but that was a bourbon, its shit anyway, ain't as pain..

Christopher: Macha, I think Whiskey don't like you dei..

Guess it will only be a one way relationship then..

Happy Birthday

LOL

lets just say, rubbish, and good for you

=)

By the way, was refering to this that I've came across but forgotten to upload:



lol

Good Morning

Good morning heartache
I though that I had lost you
But here you are again
Good morning heartache
I guess that you wont leave me
It will always be this way

I should confess that I once loved you
I thought I knew you
A love so close without condition
Now in remission
Between my heart and my mind
Loop is turnin’
Every word and everything you said

It’s just one of those things
One of those things
It’s just one of those things

Good morning heartache
What brought you back here to me?
What made you come again?
Good morning heartache
I wish that I could tell you
That I am glad to see you, but I ain’t

Remember how I once held you
What happened to you?
Tell me do and please be true
A love so close without condition
Now in remission

Between my heart and my mind
Loop is turnin’
Every word and everything you said

It’s just one of those things
One of those things
It’s just one of those things

And there are stories in our eyes
Chapters of our lives we can’t disguise
They will sometimes disappear
Day turns into night but morning comes again they reappear

Power of LIEBHERR

POWAHHHHHHHHH

2 engines with 2000hp/1910hp each with 75 tonnes bucket capacity.

The R9800

Don't you just love massive machines? =)

What do you do when your house got broken in?

You DIY your own alarm system till the grill gets fixed and swear to rip him apart, skin the mofo alive and throw him in burning oil.

The second punching pad broken long ago..

Sleeping with the baton helps too.

You can. BUT

You can say anything. Words are yours.

BUT

Don't act as if it mattered so much when in fact, look at yourself and what you've been doing for well, months. 'Cause honestly, it wasn't at all convincing.

Tell me it didn't sound fake.

=)

Please.

That quote didn't say nothing for you.



I felt rather insulted.

Because I Stopped. And Smiled.

I'm sorry if the fall wasn't worth it. I didn't thought so.

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Somewhat came across a song today at work. But this time, I smiled.

Yes of course things are never going to be the same anymore.

Of course I've changed.

I can't speak or be the same person you had been seeing for the past few years.

Of course there's someone else you'd rather see when you feel down.

We got no reasons to keep a time or so just to talk anymore.

I've just stopped taking the initiative because I felt taken for granted after the first few times.

But I'm not avoiding you. I need to let you know.

Quoted from a friend

"I guess I'll have to accept that I will always gonna be a little in love with you. But its ok, as long as it doesn't keep me from moving on."


The smilie is always there for you

=)

More Sleep during working weekdays than weekends

45 hours. 3 hours of sleep =)

How now.

Fix Everything Week

I fixed my formula for a work assignment.

I fixed the bloody metal gate that had a key stuck in it (thanks to someone) to gain entry to my own house.

I fixed the gate control that had some contact problems.

I fixed the rattling transmission and engine with an oil change each.

I'm fixing my lungs by not smoking for a week. (though not looking too good at the moment)

Hoping to meet up with some asses that returned from the land of convicts to fix some lost moments.

Next thing to fix? My ex-car.

'Cause

Cause if you asked, you'd had something in mind already. Ask yourself.

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I can't change as fast as some could. So sue me.

My bros are back. I want to smile, not frown again.

Good Friends Don't say "I told You so"

You once thought I was paranoid.

Now, I wasn't so was I?

I slept late

Not due to work nor play. Not due to mamak sessions nor gaming sessions.
This time, it was a few hours of talking. To who else but my father.

I'm in my 4th year now. A year after this I'm officially out in the working world, the world that I've been simulating for the past.. Well, since my early teens if I've not mistaken.. I admit I've not seen a real ugly employer until now hence I'm still not too sure what's really out there. Lucky me.. Anyway, 4th year, a time for me to decide upon my career path.. I was told to have a maximum spend of 5 years before coming back to help out on the family business.. I've said too many times I do not want to get involved with the family business, many a times it ended with a laugh. Not this time. This time, it was a serious conversation. I've got my dreams, a dream that turned into a goal and now, will it end up biting the dust?

Being selfish and chase the dream, or to work hard and expend the existing business?

Bahh.. things to think..

PS: Horoscope-For some, its time to make a clean break from the past. Ay? Hmm..

11 July 2009

Exam results are out.

As expected, below par. Reason? Everyone knows anyway.

Been through another pit hole in life and had been crawling out of it. The damage? Many, but the only quantifiable would be the results that had been released..

Am I blaming? Nope. I don't want to blame. I am disappointed no doubt. But it was me who let my naive side got hold of me.

Lesson learnt you ask? Yup. Learnt and carved within my head and heart.

It is a world filled with temptations and all after all. Who doesn't lose control ay?

It could be a blessing in disguise. Atleast for the next few years, there shall be no mercy climbing the ladder ay? ;)

PS: Things said and done in nice ways with an intention does not make that crooked intention any better. Stabbing one with a state of the art knife doesn't really make one a nice person. Remember.

Until Further Notice

Due to the things going on in my mind.

Due to time issues.
(Connection speed in M'sia is actually not bad now, hence no longer a problem)

Due to things that are usually best not told.

The blog will be abandoned until I'm ready.

Until further notice..

Quote

"If she can move on so fast after so long, sorry to say but, you know, throughout that period, it wasn't really working man. She can do it, you know what it meant! Time to move on!"

-When a girl gave you all reasons to breakup, you know the heart is no longer yours-

Cause I don't want to be associated with some people

I'm not sure but DON'T put us in the same post please. I'd rather not hear, honestly.

Thanks.

And hence I too know what and how much it meant. I now know where I stand too.

Thanks.

=)

'Cause its another new month

And I'm done with the papers. Only presentation left. Atleast I hope. Sitting here. Watched the shows I've wanted to watch. Played CS like it was just yesterday when it was released. Sat infront of the PS3 with resistance in play for the past 2 days.

Am still awake at this time. Decided to fix the body clock hence am pushing through a sleepless marathon. House is so quiet you can hear a pin drop. The sound of tinnitus resonate within the ears..

Approximately 3 weeks till I head home. Some what not as excited as I used to be. This year, its different. People leaving, for good, for real.

You see, this year is the final year for many of us. Final year till some get their basic degree and use it as a stepping stone to the next phase of life. Either work, research, or another degree.
Well, essentially everyone's gonna be back to their respective countries soon..

Loads of ups and downs this year. Funny how similar things happened to all of us within the house in the same year. We pulled each other through the toughest of times. Well, definitly not physically judging by the looks of each other but mentally for sure.

Emotions had been messing around with all of us. Worst things had happened to the best of us.. I too, had many downfalls. Lot more than one.

Well, whatever it is, this might be the last few weeks I'll be spending with the same bunch of jokers I'll not forget for life. Things will never be the same.
We'll make the last few weeks a blast ay?

A wise man once said: Keep walking

;)


PS:
For some who had just started their journey into the exam life. Take care, be smart, plan, prioritize and all the best.
As you had faith in me, I have in you too. 'cause you can do it.

Dreams

If you know me, you'd know that I somewhat analyse anything that sorta leaves a mark in my head. Figuratively, more so literally. If not now, later.

Just as one of my friends told me the ex got a new partner already, and how it feels and stuff. I told that friend of mine there's no point thinking about it. Because its not worth it.

Then I got bloody dreams. Not one, not two, but THREE. How ironic. And this. I'd like to put it under the CAT scan not now, but much later.

_____________________________________________________

On another note, I've got a friend who was talking to me just moments ago about how we're on our prime and never seem to speak much to our friends. About how we were swamped with work and stuff like that..

He went missing for an hour after that.. -_- @#$%^&*(*&^%$#@!
Better have some good reasoning for that.

_____________________________________________________

Shit, I've been blogging every day huh? That's how much time I've got and how much I'm procrastinating my final year project selection..

ANYWAY!

Local talent with a pretty strong American accent. Something I'd listen to, but not for long.. 'Cause I think indie is gay. Well, kinda.. You get what I mean. Hence the lack of her personal information now in this entry..

Zee Avi



I know some people would like this kinda songs. And she's got a nice voice. So. Enjoy. =)


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I've realised how many things I can think of within a day now that I've got all the free time in the world.

I was loving the sleep.

I was loving the weather.

I was loving the freedom to do anything I fancy.

Then I get the stupid dreams.

Then the weather turned cloudy after weeks of sunshine.

Then I realise I actually have matter in hand to work off before the big drunken party commencing in just about 14 hours from now.

Space this Friday? The non-organic Space. The union club space. Yes? :)

E002

News is, the order went through!




One thing: I do hope you've missed her in the complex.. Else, I'm rather dissapointed..

Because I was bored

So I took the time to research on something I had been contemplating on for some time already.

After hours of analysing and thinking clouded by countless dilemmas, through the black clouds, a silver lining pierced though...


I BOUGHT ME SELF A NEW SET OF CANS! *HUGE SMILE*


Set of Goldring DR100


Note: Yes, I know its goldring and the silver lining bit didn't really made it BUT! Its Dream Theater's upcoming new album.. So.. Yeah.. DT! Woohoo! 12 June! Woohoo!! Now.. Next up, double bass(which was told by BigDog that its gonna take 3 weeks to arrive and I should really check with the seller again if my order went through..) Damn I hope it reaches before I head back..


PS: Yes, I know I should really be looking at choosing my final year project at the moment.. But heh, I'll do that before the deadline. Promise!


PPS:

Ken Block's back. With the 09 Subaru Impreza hatch customised by Crawford Performance. Overdone the slow motion bits if you'd to ask me. Some effects and(or) sound edit would help. But heck, still insane driving skills.

Good stuff.

Over and Done

Sweet sweet freedom.

Because I'm done.

Because I've got atleast a Bachelor's in Mechanical Engineering.

Because I'm tired.

Because I should be real happy right now.

Because no matter how dissappointed things are not going to change.

Because sometimes its not worth thinking of it again.

Because I'm over and done with it.

PARTAYYY BABY!

Ken+Block+Gymkhana+Practice

Routine

Routine.
I'm used to staying up till 8am. Working at night had always been most productive for me.
Chugging RedBull all the way and all these for the sake of the ability to sleep for 4 hours per day.
Some say its unhealthy. Should I break my routine for that?

The routine had changed, instead of 4 hours, the alarm does not wake me up anymore.
I'm sleeping 8 hours these days. Because its my last paper and I'm always slacking on the last paper. Routine broken? No. Its slightly altered. Was it of my will? Not really. I just got used to it. But I'm still working at night. I'm still chugging red bull.

There used to be one routine I follow happily.
Whichever mental state I'm in. The result of the routine, the sole purpose, had been one that paid off tremendously. Well, to me. Again, Opinions.
And then, I had to break that routine. One routine I was very, I mean, VERY used to.
I was forced to alter that routine. Before I form a new routine, I seek for the best way.
As usual, I observe. I analyse. I prioritize.
But long after, I was gave up the routine.
I've tried my best to minimise the changes. But attempts failed many. Many times.
Again. Priorities went away. It was not on my side.

SO!

A new routine was made.
But realising my liver was already a pile of jelly, things had to be done.
Therefore, a new routine was formed when the time came.
It was once a route I'll never EVER think of going into some time ago.
But results of the attempts made were as bad as my history marks.
Because I saw where I stood. Behind one that I did not like.
Behind one I thought would make one's life easier when first mentioned.
(well, now it definitely is doing so.)
And so I got used to this routine. I stuck to this routine.
I realised that this routine had fit me pretty well given the circumstances.

I'm not a man of changes. I don't like changes.
Men are certified animals that does not like changes.
Sometimes, we are forced to change. We will after we prioritise.
I was willing to. But note the WAS. Because I've waited to.
Not for a short period of time. It was long.
You know what? The time had passed.
Now, I might just want to stick to this new routine. Because I'm used to it already.

And I hate changes.

Quote

"You are not responsible for what people think about you.
But you are responsible for what you give them to think about you."

Stanley Ferrard


"Glass, china and reputation are easily cracked, and never well mended."

Benjamin Franklin



Forget what's gone
Leave behind the past
your failure your pain

Sometimes, things are not even a hint.
Sometimes, it shows right in the face.
But sometimes, we choose to ignore.
Ignorance, really a bliss? Maybe. Maybe not.
Again, opinions.


lastly,


"Those who want to live, let them fight, and those who do not want to fight in this world of eternal struggle do not deserve to live."

Adolf Hitler

In My Prius!

Something to laugh at after 10 hours of sleep. Just before I start working.

;)

good day people


PS:


Feel it? You're it.


PPS:
Question by housemates:
If you have cancer, would you not know about it and live life to the fullest still. Or hear about it and try to get by?

Me? I might not want to hear about it. Sometimes, things are better not known. Not heard. Not thought.
Most people start dying only when they know they are.
If you get what I mean.

Live life like never before. Why look back?
Some things cherished, most things buried.
When it comes, it comes.
=)

10 hours

You know what 10 hours of sleep feels like?

Had you ever appreciated the time you've got to just sleep without the guilt of every second wasted while you lie on your bed?

Had you brought your notes to the bed and slept along side it because you couldn't bare the thought of the time wasted while your mind shuts off, but in fact you sandman had been hovering about you for the whole day?

Had you set yourself to sleep for 4 hours per day and fuel yourself with caffeine and B12 because 6 hours of sleep would over indulge your body and would had made you sleepy the whole day?

Had you pushed so hard before in your life, to sit there with the purpose to study but your mind ended up wondering around things uncalled for?

Had you did all those and when judgement day comes, you felt like the most fatuous, bonehead in the whole hall?



If you did, go get some 10 hours of sleep. Or maybe 8. Because life would appear to be better after that 10 hours. Well, that is until you repeat the cycle again as the next paper is coming up soon..

I really don't see any difference between this and work life.
Nyeh, things might be different at another company.. Who knows.

Bye bye

Bye bye 1st class..

6 months ago I thought I was on track.

6 months later I knew i lost track.. Of more things than one..







Signed
-stress-

50 is the age

If you know me, I love performance vehicles. More of towards the road version of things.. GT racers, Classic rally vehicles, those in group B can turn me on by the sound of its engine alone.

Today, Friday the 22nd of May 2009, mark a big 50 on one of the most classic vehicles. One that at one point dominated the rally scene. One that had been classed among the most influential of vehicles. One that was first designed on the back of an envelope.. The Mini. The car that revolutionised the word "Compact" and "Maximised Space" within the automotive industry.Although not so in the new MINI's and I think the clubman is hell fugly no matter what they do to it. MINI celebrates its 50th anniversary since the first mini rolled off the Cowley production line in 1959.

3 days of celebration on the Silverstone race track here in the UK where the original designing and production was made, a series of shows, races and challanges are brought on to celebrate this very event.

Yahoo had brought up some 50 pictures in conjunction with this special day
The legacy of the iconic mini

And some write ups some years ago about the mini by yours truely:
Mini
The Mini-Again

Enjoy.

Strange

One moment
Everything within your life is part of each other's concern
Every step, every action, every word, every emotions
It meant the world

Next moment
You don't talk
You don't ask
You don't really bother
You move one out of the category of "things to do when free"


Heh. Strange how things can be.. Strange how people can be.

Oh well.

Have plans to abandon the blog. For the initial reason it was set up was gone..

Your 2 cents?

Screwed up

Literally.

Story of the twins with different fathers.

Link below:
Yahoo news

Face reality

Possibly the WORST time EVER to think of this shit in my head.

EVER!

Running out of time to study. Running out of time to finish up the group work.

Thanks to a song someone had been singing for the past bloody week!

*squints eye*
Rather disturbing..


Trip to shell would bring me encounters with too many prostitues. Trip to Spars is just too damn insane. Well, too far for a pack anyway.. IC? Yeah, should hit the IC..


PS: Words, easily said. People, sometimes are unbelievable.
Dissapointment. yeah. that's the word. 666? number of the beast.
But oh well, sometimes, as long as you're happy, its fine.. Haaa..



Have a nice day! =)

Emirates

I've got enough skywards to get to the other end of the world. Hmm... Summer holidays if internship fails maybe? As for how far the points can get me,

Anywayyyy... After further analytical approach to the matter with consideration of the current currency conversion rate, economical situation and fuel prices . Instead of redeeming the flight, I've decided to keep those points and go travelling some time after! =)

Now, the whole message i'm trying to get across is..


And as for when..


Pick me up you bastard guy

Can? :P

Ups and Downs

Audi Advert


Nyahahahahah. First the Billboards with BMW, then the advert intruding Ferrari. I'm loving American advertising. I'm loving Audi's adverts!


Nitrous Fire


For those who thinks nitros is an easy addition with all the big bang horsepower with a slap of it on stupid films like fast and furious.
Here's something to show you what happens if Murphy's law comes out to play..

And now for a bit of fun

Drugs, Alcohol, Sex

You've got your drugs, alcohol and sex.
I got my coffee, red bull and silver

Cheyyy

Dah DAPAT!

Will be heading back there to Sheffield on the 10th September. But, oh well! :D

At a Stage

Where I would not hesitate to smash anyone's head on the wall.


http://theautosexual.blogspot.com/2008/05/stress.html

Talk about balls of steel..

Toughts. Facts.

Do it if you feel like it.
Don't if you not.

People can only give opinions.
YOU make the choice.
YOU are in charge of everything that happens around you.
Hence, YOU are responsible for everything.

Time awaits none.
Lose it, there's always a price to pay.

Everything around happens because of YOUR actions.
Active, passive of lack of.
Decisions lie within YOUR hands.
YOU are in control.

Better or worse. You control. No one else.



Think.

Eureka again!

Crunchy peanut + Strawberry jam = Sex Awesomeness

EUREKA!

Eureka!

Too great for tv.

94 minutes of madness

Fuck. Fire Alarm test again. Annoying.. Anyway, for those with 94 mins to spare. Here,s a compilation of rally crashes sourced from google via Autoblog.com
Interesting bits starts from approximately 48mins for those who're not as interested as the newer cars come in. 1:15:30 is when the in-car camera footages starts. Crazy fans, insanely dedicated drivers with unpredictable road conditions. Head stands, hand stands, nose stands, triple flips, head spins. You name it, they've done it. You just got to love rallies.

1:00:40, 1:21:50 is what you call a double trouble, two fish in a pond, whatever you wanna call it..

1:08:00? I call it a bang bang!

1:09:00? A chicken run!




Oh, did I mention driving on one of the A roads from Manchester to Sheffield in the middle of the night gives you this fabulous rally like feeling? Loved the curves, loved the country side, loved the feel. Would definitly go on it again given the chance.. ;)


PS: (Out of the topic) Words are easily said. Try doing it? Its always easier said than done.. Heh..

STIMMMM

12.6.2009
Possibly the best day of my life!

Quattroporte + Paint = Ouch

Was in the gym today running, and all outta sudden there's some sorta bloody pain in the chest that was so intensed I had to stop everything and rest. My guess would be the precordial catch syndrome. Well, atleast that's what I want to believe it as at the moment. Whatever it is, saw this video clip on the screen as I was running after that.



No no, I'm still not into all these sorta songs, but while the guy's smashing shits that doesn't really matter and the girl's throwing every valuable bits into the pool and fire. AND the paint on that Maserati Quattroporte in the clip.. That's no way to treat one like that..

Failed

Failed.

Some of you know that I'm experimenting this polyphasic sleeping pattern. Whereby a person only takes 20minutes of power nap every 4 hours with no effect of sleep deprivation.

With hope of increasing the productivity by shortening a day's sleeping hours from 8 to 2 hours per day, I've decided to give it a try since I've got nothing to do these days.. Well, okay, not really nothing to do. But thought there will be no harm trying it out.

Result for the first weeks: Failed

Inflexibility of daily activities especially during the evenings made 20 minute naps impossible. Not to mention the difficulties of falling asleep whenever desired..

However!

I've not given up yet!

Stay updated!

Its not over yet!

Us

Smiles were there. Its gone now. But I wish the best to you. =)
I hoped and asked you to come back, one word and we'll make all these a bad dream..
But you're shutting me off.. Telling me you're sad but you still want to let go..
A different smile is what we give when we face each other now..
I will treasure the moments we were together as much as I treasure the friendship among us at the moment.
Things that we've done for each other, things that we've been through together, I'm glad I did it for you.
You were my special someone and will always be that special someone in my life. =)
Take care there alright? ; )
Be alert, be aware, dont be the blur girl no more..
Things are never as simple as it seems..
My last post to remind me of the happy moments we had.
I too depended alot on you for the past 28 months.
Letting go is not as easy as it is..


I'm still learning.

Then I realise..

Then I realise I was the one who screwed up..
I was the one who held on too tight..
I was the one who squeezed too hard and things fell apart..
I've squeezed her so so hard..
So so tight I didn't realise I forgot to let her breathe..

Is it really over now? Is this the end? I don't want to let go..
But just then, I screwed up again..

I should not had jumped into conclusions..
I should had trusted..
I should had listened..
I should had learnt from mistakes..
I should had believed..

1 month ago I would had never thought we would ever enter this stage..
Where everything was strong..
We made promises.
We thought about life after all these.
It was US. Not you, nor I..

Can you remember the days we had? The days we held each others' hand through everything.. Through ups and downs.. Through the bumpy roads that we knew was coming but held on tight.. I was jealous. I was stupid. I was probably the worst boyfriend ever.
You tell me the love is gone.
You tell me love was not enough.
I am sincerely sorry.
I'm not asking you to come back no more..
But I hope you'd find a better one.
One that knows you better.
One that loves you more.
One that would not say the things I've said.
One that does not break down as much as I did.

I've did one of the worst mistakes in my life to had let you go.
I tried catching but it failed again.
Things you told hit me too hard..
I lost it..
Again I've sqeezed too hard
Again I've shattered the glass
Again I mis-interpreted
Again, I screwed up..
Maybe You're right, I can't change who I am.
I can't be who I said I would be for you.
I hope the next one will know better.

We will miss the days where texts were sent throughout the day to our phones.
We will miss the mails we had in our inbox due to the lack of communications.
We will miss seeing each other on the webcam.
We will miss the warmth we once shared among us.
We will miss the feeling of holding each others' hands.
We will miss doing stupid things in the shopping mall when its closing time.
We will miss driving around aimlessly trying to look for a place to eat that McD you wanted.
We will miss the days where we tried squeezing time for each other no matter how busy.
We will miss so many things we've done together..

Most of all I will miss you..

Atleast I will.

Sometimes

Sometimes you wonder if its so hard to reply a text
Sometimes you doubt the things that were said
Sometimes you can't help but to think there had been things going on but she's not even sure.
Sometimes all these look so familiar..
And it was me at the other end the last time..

Sometimes..

...

Valentines came late. Or did it?

Valentine's day came a tad later.. I got Valentine's Day Present too!! The writings, the pictures, and the all familiar perfume smell that comes with every mail she sent.. Love every bit of it! =) Despite the hectic schedule she had before she left for Australia, she took time to make me a valentine's day gift box! =D

We've never spent a valentine's day together officially before.. 14th Feb too had always been a gimmic to me, it didn't make sense how a person's death can be celebrated across the world as a romantic occasion. Well, it makes sense if you want to really connect the dots but it had always been one huge marketing gimmic to me. Oh well, couples find every possible excuse to show affections to each other I guess. No harm done there. Provided if you're prepared for it and have an undestanding girlfriend. Which I do. =P

Well, everyday can be valentine's day if you've got that special someone. Ain't I right? =) 10 000 miles away but our hearts were never too far away from each other. ;)

I'm missing her, the fact that she had yet to set up her internet connection and unlimited internet usage is uncommon in Australia is not helping much.. But we'll work things out.. As always ;)

Cheesy, i know. Oh well, occasional cheesiness can't hurt too many people, can it?

Have fun people. I'm happy! Hahah. Thanks to theGirl that I love ;)

I'm really not a chauvanising bugger

But I really need to post this video up =P

Freaking Lazy

No freaking reason. I'm feeling lazy the whole day. Another day spent doing nothing, lazing around, playing the Playstation. Holy COW! One day gone just like that!

*note to self: Start working*

Oh, for those who are wondering, that is basically what I've been doing everyday since I got back to Sheffield after the exams. Sitting around, doing nothing.. The occasional cooking, some bits of gym and that's about all.. Heck, I'm enjoying it ya. And don't start getting judgemental!

Another note!

13Feb! while you all couples are planning the lovey dovey stuff, Metal heads gathered at the sheffield arena in the evening for this:


Well, Megadeth weren't main staging but it was awesome! First row baby! Crazy place to be but it was all worth it! Hell ya!

Judas Priest who was playing main stage was awesome! They're still rocking on after so many years!
A lil souvenir we've got. Got Dave Mustaine's pick! The one beside Mustaine's Chris Broderick's pick. Both laying ontop of Testament's set list. There were 3 happy asians within the audience that night. !..!. .!..!

Next up!
Metallica will be in Sheffield the coming Saturday!

Off she went

Off she went.. 3 hours extra to the existing time difference.. 11hours now.
It was 10 thousand km away, now its 10 thousand miles..
A new challenge for us to embrace.
It will be hard no doubt. It had never been easy anyway..
We'll get through this. Together. =)



*Edit: A call made everything better. =)

Gong Xi Fa Chai

Happy Chinese New Year!

YuanHao is sad cause he won't be able to celebrate chinese new year back home instead stuck in UK studying for finals. :(
He misses his bak gua.

Mr. YuanHao Choo has back-to-back papers on the 2nd and 3rd day of Chinese New Year. he needs all the support!
At this moment, overdose in caffeine, hyper in a bad way, giving funny face expressions, and making funny noises every now and then. I would love to share a video clip of him now but i think he'll fly back from UK and skin me alive. hmmm... maybe i should. cause since he's in the midst of his finals, he wouldnt be able to leave and therefore won't do any harm to me. haha. i think im a lil bit out of my mind as well as it's 1.30 am and i usually sleep before 12am due to work the following day. anyway, back to the topic.

latest update: he's not studying!! instead explaining his new discovery on speaker jacks -____-

simply because my bag matches the top he was wearing :p
photo taken on our trip to Langkawi :)


ok. im done here. sleep is very much needed. nights!






5.38pm in Sheffield, UK.
Boyfriend, i know you miss me! heee...

2010 Mercedes-Benz E Class

They made the C,
it was good to see,
then came the E,
which they screwed badly as it now looks like the bloody 3 with bits of audi..


I'm disappointed.. Badly.. Just when you thought they might had brought the game back with the new C..

Over and out..

*Edited: Change of date, simply because.. I like :P*